Choosing God In The Hard

It’s hard. It hurts. But just because it’s hard doesn’t mean it’s an excuse to do the wrong things. I have to persevere and endure and hope and trust that it won’t always be like this. Just because I struggle doesn’t mean it’s okay to disobey God.

It’s about choosing to love God even though it doesn’t make sense. Choose God in the difficulty. Choose God in the uncertainty. Choose God in the hurting. Choose God in the pain. Choose God in the confusion. If I burn, I burn for God. If I suffer, I suffer for God. It’s about wanting what He wants even though it does not make sense.

I question so much. 1 ¹ m confused about so much. 1 ¹ m uncertain about so much. I don’t see Him, but yet I see Him. He is good to me. He is there for me, even though it doesn’t feel like it. It feels as if He has forgotten me, but yet I still feel Him and see His goodness. I see His providence in my life. He is faithful to me even though I am so confused. He has not left me. He has not abandoned me. He is here guiding me and leading me through the darkness. He is my Light in this darkness that I find myself in. He is my hope even though I see no hope. He is so good even though it hurts so much. He is just and fair even though it feels like the walls are closing in, He is just and fair even though it feels like all the odds are stacked up against me. He is my way out even though it feels like there is no way out. If I keep my eyes on Him and just follow Him, I will find my way out. I may stumble but I must turn my eyes back on Him. The minute I take my eyes

off of Him, I see nothing but darkness again. I cannot find my way in the darkness. I can see nothing in the darkness, no way out. But He is Light, perfect, glorious and radiant Light. He lights my path, He shows me the way. I must keep my eyes on Him, His beautiful light. His light clears the way, His light shows me the way out, His light protects me, His light warms me. With Him I am safe. Because of His light, I can see ahead of me. I must keep my eyes on Him, He is the way, He is the truth and He is life everything and anything else is a lie.

He meets me in my pain, He meets me in my hurt, He meets me in my confusion. He is faithful. He is always there! It’s not a question of whether He is there or not. The question rather is, am I listening? Am I listening closely enough to hear His voice

of comfort and love through the confusion. He doesn’t always give the answers right away, but He is always there loving, comforting and extending His peace? Will I receive it even though it seems so uncertain? God’s unsurpassing peace, who can ever comprehend (understand) it. Praise Him for He is faithful who can comprehend (understand) Him, He is worthy of all my praise. I am unworthy to praise Him.

Author & Friend – Jeraldine Francis